T W I N
C I T I E S
C R E A T I O N
S C I E N C E
A S S O C I A T I O N
You know, you're right. It really made no sense to post the kite story at all since
I said that there's no amount of persuasion that will ever convince a man to confess
Jesus Christ as his Savior from sin. And since it was even anti-climactic for you,
well.....all I can say is "nuts!" Don't forget though, I did say that one was just
Why, I doubt that I could even convince you of a particular sin in your life. Am I
right? Don't answer that, Thomas. A good attorney would advise you that it isn't
another person's job to convict another of their sin. It's strictly up to the Holy
Spirit of God to convict of sin. So, "forget it, mister." Ignore it.
I realize now that I've really goofed in the letter to you. First I told you that I
hoped to persuade you to believe in Jesus Christ through my own experience with God.
And then later I told you that no man is capable of persuading another to believe in
God, really. /OK, OK, so I'm full of baloney! / What I'm getting at, in a round
about way, is that only the Holy Spirit of God can bring a person to the point of
conversion to Jesus Christ.
So what I'd like to straighten out is this idea that the prayer I've said for you,
that God would show you a personal miracle to convince you and only you, that's how I
expect God to work out your salvation - not through Ed's kite story or anything I've
said to you. I'm just here to lend credence to His reality by way of my own
testimony. When on the cliff of decision, which is where I found myself in my
bathtub one fateful night ( - no kidding), it's good to know then that others have
made that leap of Faith and found Jesus' words were true: He really WILL catch you!
I know that for me, remembering Jane H.'s testimony to me was important at the time.
It got me to jump, in fact. Getting you there to the edge of the cliff though, Tom,
that's the Holy Spirit's job.
Now, lest you begin to fret since you say you can't (or won't) believe in a miracle
and have thereby sealed your eternal fate from any and all hope - "Stop!" (or, as
one good Christian would say to another: "Be strong and take heart all you who hope
in the Lord!" - a Psalm)
From what I understand about Him, God doesn't want any one of us in heaven with Him
any MORE than he wants the other guy. And I say that this is true no matter HOW you
sing, Tom.[wink] He wants you there just as much as He wants me. So, what I'm
getting at is this: He'll give you only as much proof of Himself as you require to
get you to the edge of that cliff of decision, which is where you'll find this
yet-mysterious Holy Spirit of His Whom (I've prayed) will visit you. Not knowing you
well, or at all, I have no idea how great a miracle you'll require. But God knows.
The ones I like best though, are the ones which touch my heart, the one meant only
for me, Rose of Sharon. The ones that convince me of His constant presence in my
life. He says He's residing within me now, after all, you know. He's proved this
to me many times when I've seen answers to prayers I've only "wished in my heart"
for. Those are the ones that keep me fully devoted, fully in love with the mystery
of God. Those are the ones that keep me coming back again and again to grateful
worship of Him. Oh, man! You can't imagine how awesome this God I serve is!!
(You're gonna wonder what kept you, Tom) And, since I know Him to be as fair as they
come, Tom, I know that the miracle that God's going to show you when He visits you
will be poignant - just for you. If you tried, there'd be people who'd think you
were cracked if you tried telling them about your encounter. Can you imagine, for
instance, Dr. Ed describing the kite story to his fellow pundants at the University
and giving credit for such a "miracle" to God - right there on campus? No way. The
event was just for Ed just as yours will be just for Tom, Tom.
As for my favorite verse about "believing prayer". My relationship with God has
(finally) started to become one of an understanding that, heh, I'll do the asking -
it's up to "The Man" to decide what to do with the requests. I'll say my prayers,
with a healthy dose of "belief" that He's capable of every request (and full of Faith
that He's heard me) but I've learned to trust His yea or His nay in my life. Like
any trusting kid, I'll let Him decide what's best for me, I've decided. That lottery
ticket I once bought? A "Nay". Tough luck. I'd probably have grown to really love
the money, hating my siblings for wanting some of it, and squandered it shamefully on
a Mazaradi. Oh, well. I've learned to pretty much limit my prayers to things I
know He'll approve of, too. For instance, these prayers for the salvation of others
who don't know Him yet? They're a "given". His desire is that "all would come to
repentance - that none should perish." So I know that this prayer for you is in His
will. It's those lottery ticket prayers that we try to slip in, justify to Him
somehow, that get "iffy", Tom.
And it's good to keep in mind that His promises to answer prayer are based on some
principles which He set down long, long ago. Way back in the first Israelite Age.
Most Christians tend to forget about at least one. For instance, He tells us that
"if [we] regard sin in our hearts, He will not hear our prayer." This one's huge.
There are tons of people (Heck, I've *been* one of them) who'll imagine that after
making their request of God to enter their lives, they can just keep on sinning away
and still 'beg' God for petty miracles in their lives. Like He's a vend-a-miracle
worker. Nada. They'll be disappointed every time. Then they'll start to think
it's God's fault; or that this prayer thing just doesn't work. It can really
devastate a gal's relationship with God, no doubt. It can bury it, in fact.
Well, I've kept you long enough. I don't know if I'm ready to dive into another
debate about God with you, Tom. I'm sorry. I am in the middle of writing a book, as
a matter of fact; and this chair I sit in to tap out these words gets harder and
harder the longer I sit in it. That forum I was on became somewhat of an addiction
for me and I was grateful several months ago when it crashed. I found that there was
life beyond forum debates and I even made great progress on my book as a result.
When you tell me that "I write beautifully"....you can't imagine the way that strokes
my ego. You make we want to hang around to hear that more often. Seriously, thank
you for that. I've never published as much as a poem before. This is a huge effort
for me and so any ray of hope from an objective personality is a great encouragement!
Oh, just two more thing before I sign off. First, I insist that you email me when
you feel you've encountered God, should it happen within the next several years and
you recall this conversation. I always love to hear 'how' God answers the prayers
said for others.
Second, don't ever under-estimate the value of the "leading" aspect that God affords
those of us who consult Him on such things. I know without a doubt that He has
asked me to write this book. Yes.... if you'd like me to put it that way, "He told
me to do it." I say this, having become accustomed to the sound of His 'voice',
which, "no", I've never actually heard. Yikes. No wonder this is hard for you to
I asked, He answered. What more can I say?
Since then, when in need of further guidance as to various details of the book, He's
been there all along to answer me there, too, which further confirms at least that
I'll sell it to someone. No kidding. I'd be doing something else if I wasn't sure
that there was some expectation of a binding around this effort. Look for me in
print some day. It'll be found in the "Middle East/Prophecy" section at your local
Christian bookstore. Time is short and I say this because of the physical evidence
of Judah being re-gathered and in control of Jerusalem. A hint: no one is going to
force the Jews out of Jerusalem, in case you've wondered. God has promised to
defend them there (this last time) Himself. What a cool, cool prophetic calendar we
have right there before our very eyes, Tom. I'm telling you, Tom, He's amazing. And
there was never a more interesting time to be alive.
What more can a gal say? My prayer is that you'll say so too one day - and that
you'll say it soon.